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[personal profile] purplefringe
HAI FRIENDS. I have not posted in a looong time. This is what happens when there's a WHOLE YEAR without Doctor Who, and I don't have 5000-word meta posts I need to get out of my head before I can go to sleep. (Soon that will not be the case. My show is coming back! Aaaaaah.)

So what have I been doing? Well, mostly, I've been having a lot of feelings about Star Trek. [personal profile] such_heights & I have spent the past two and a quarter years watching DS9 together, at an average rate of not-quite-two-episodes-a-week. It was, bar one or two episodes of TNG, my first introduction to Star Trek. Friends, I am in love. It's been an epic journey of joy and delight and occasional PAIN, much of which has been livetweeted by my terrible friends. “Let’s have a party so we can all watch Phoebe watching Dr Bashir I Presume”, they said. “It will be fun!” they said. :-P But I have love love loved DS9, and have spent way too much time mentally living aboard that ridiculous, malfunctioning, vole-infested space station over the past couple of years. (For the past year, the DS9 obsession has intersected with the Hamilton obsession; that produced a lot of thoughts and feelings too .)

Having DS9 as my central focus point for Trek has had all sorts of interesting and occasionally hilarious repercussions – one of which is that I am IRRATIONALLY ANNOYED by how CUSHY the Enterprise is. I’ve seen a lot more TNG now, and every time I see them in their plush beige chairs and their comfy beige rooms, I am resentful on behalf of all those who suffer the Cardassian indignity of DS9. DS9! My home <3

Of course, as I have frequently yelled on Twitter, I love everyone in this bar. Come Equinox I am going to request ALL THE DS9 VIDS IN THE WORLD because there aren't enough. I love Sisko, oh captain my captain, and his relationship with Jake and later with Kassidy (BEST SPACE FAMILY); I love DAX, perfect and beautiful troll queen, in both her incarnations; I love Kira and wish her life wasn’t so damn hard all the time; I love Miles and Keiko and their adorable children (and wish HIS life wasn’t so damn hard all the time); I love Odo, my grumpy Space Javert; I love Worf, who is not a diplomat; I love Nog and Rom and the wonderful journeys they go on; I even love Quark, for some reason.

But…I especially love Julian Bashir. I just. His FACE, you guys. His face. And his dorky EARNESTNESS. And you know who else loves Julian Bashir? GARAK. GARAK LOVES JULIAN BASHIR. (And my god do I love Garak. I had a dream about him the other night.) I don't remember much about my specific feelings when watching the first season of DS9, but I do clearly remember being THRILLED by Garak's arrival on the scene, and being very disappointed at having to wait until Season 2 to see him again. I've since gone back and watched his introduction a number of times and you know what? No matter how many times I watch it, there is NEVER any heterosexual explanation for that scene. None. Andrew J Robinson, what a gift. (The first thing I did on finishing the show was to read his book, A Stitch In Time, and there's no heterosexual explanation for THAT either.) So anyway, I eventually did what I always do when I have too many feelings to hold in my heart at one time: I made a vid.

I think I found the song on a fanmix somewhere? Somehow it feels more hilariously retro to be vidding a Muse song than it does to be vidding Star Trek. Yeah, idk. But anyway I found this song and it was quite clearly meant to be about this glorious, fucked-up couple who are both far more than they appear on the surface, and who spend seven seasons peeling away at the layers of each other. Did I mention that I love them? Because I love them.

And I had the GREATEST time making this vid! It contains one moment which I think is probably the best clip juxtaposition of any vid I've ever made (I got so excited about it I had to text [personal profile] such_heights about it at like 1am) and the hardest thing was not using every single shot of Garak and Julian flirting outrageously with each other, because tragically the song is not half an hour long. I have to thank both [personal profile] such_heights and [personal profile] raven for their enthusiastic, flaily and high-pitched encouragement, and in particular the completely wonderful [personal profile] cosmic_llin and [personal profile] bironic, both of whom gave me very patient, detailed, incredibly useful beta feedback. And were also subjected to too many near-identical iterations of the vid. Thank you both! <3

Finally, THANK YOU to all my RL Trek nerd friends, who have spent the past two and a quarter years assiduously NOT spoiling me for a show that first aired over twenty years ago - and sometimes going to extreme measures to do so :-P You are all heroes, and I appreciate it very much. Am boldly going on to Voyager now, and am super excited to get to know Janeway and her crew. But first: a DS9 vid.

Undisclosed Desires
edited by [personal profile] purplefringe
fandom: Star Trek: Deep Space Nine
characters: Julian/Garak
music: Undisclosed Desires by Muse
summary: I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart
content notes: I feel like I should warn for how traumatically beautiful Julian Bashir's face is, but if you're watching this vid you probably know that already.

download: 77MB @ mediafire



I know you've suffered
But I don't want you to hide
It's cold and loveless
I won't let you be denied

I'll make you feel pure
Trust me
You can be sure

I want to reconcile the violence in your heart
I want to recognize your beauty is not just a mask
I want to exorcise the demons from your past
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart

You trick your lovers
That you're wicked and divine
You may be a sinner
But your innocence is mine

Please me
Show me how it's done
Tease me
You are the one

I want to reconcile the violence in your heart
I want to recognize your beauty is not just a mask
I want to exorcise the demons from your past
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart

Please me
Show me how it's done
Trust me
You are the one

I want to reconcile the violence in your heart
I want to recognize your beauty is not just a mask
I want to exorcise the demons from your past
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart

Date: 2016-10-14 05:10 pm (UTC)
silverhare: Jadzia Dax smiling (trek: ds9 - jadzia [happy smiling])
From: [personal profile] silverhare
Loved the vid! I have just watched DS9 for the first time and am now most of the way through TNG.

Date: 2016-10-14 05:11 pm (UTC)
raanve: Choose Your Own Adventure: PEW PEW ROBOT DISCO (Robot Disco!)
From: [personal profile] raanve
This is WONDERFUL! :D What a delightful vid!

Date: 2016-10-14 07:16 pm (UTC)
calapine: (Default)
From: [personal profile] calapine
MAGNIFICENT. So many feelings, all the good feelings. I love all the touching and all the smiles and never realised how much Garak likes to stroke Julian's shoulder (which make sme think it is a Cardassian neckridge thing) and there are so many gorgeous cuts with perfect, beautiful timing and PAIN SUFFERING VIOLENCE but then HAPPY AND SMILES. Oh. It is everything a Bashir/Garak vid shld be.

Date: 2016-10-14 08:51 pm (UTC)
starlady: Raven on a MacBook (Default)
From: [personal profile] starlady
I haven't even watched the vid and I am already grinning like a loon just reading your DS9 thoughts. It was the central Trek show for me, too, after the original movies, and it's still the best. I've been rewatching with my flatmates and the other thing that strikes me now is how the show just keeps returning to the same themes over the course of its run, but in a deeper and more traumatic way every time. Augh. SHOW.

And also, good god yes, there is no heterosexual explanation for Garak, and he and Julian are amazing, and the secrets that Julian is keeping just make them even more thematically perfect for each other, I can't.

Okay maybe I should watch the vid before this babbling gets out of control.
Edited Date: 2016-10-14 08:52 pm (UTC)

Date: 2016-10-16 11:16 am (UTC)
raven: Karen Gillan as Amy Pond, wearing green and red and looking up (Default)
From: [personal profile] raven
This is such a great insight, I love it. Yes, yes - DS9 has its own economies of supply and demand, and Sisko understands that it's different from a Federation starship and that's why he keeps it running as well as he does; but then, he doesn't quite realise how living on DS9 has changed him until ITPM.

Date: 2016-10-14 09:49 pm (UTC)
shinyjenni: Close up on Julian Bashir's face (bashir)
From: [personal profile] shinyjenni

(Also the download link doesn't seem to be working for me? I get a "permission denied message when I click on it.)

Date: 2016-10-15 01:29 am (UTC)
bironic: Neil Perry gazing out a window at night (Default)
From: [personal profile] bironic
Someone once gave me a tip that putting the file in a ZIP folder can circumvent the (c) block on mediafire. Worth a try for this, maybe?

Date: 2016-10-16 11:28 am (UTC)
shinyjenni: Close up on Julian Bashir's face (bashir)
From: [personal profile] shinyjenni
It does! \o/

Date: 2016-10-15 04:04 am (UTC)
sol_se: (Jadzia Dax)
From: [personal profile] sol_se

Date: 2016-10-15 08:05 am (UTC)
From: [personal profile] arthur_of_the_britons
Thanks - makes me want to re-watch DS9 just for this ship.

Date: 2016-10-15 10:02 am (UTC)
emma_in_dream: (bobby)
From: [personal profile] emma_in_dream
I was just describing DS9 to someone the other day as an experiment in what happens when you have the ethos of the Federation without the resources of the Federation.

Date: 2016-10-16 04:54 am (UTC)
emma_in_dream: (bucky)
From: [personal profile] emma_in_dream
That is why my favourite characters are Quark and Garak and Odo, all standing about critiquing the Federation and rolling their eyes at it.

Date: 2016-10-16 01:09 am (UTC)
tehfanglyfish: (Kaylee)
From: [personal profile] tehfanglyfish
Eep! Saw your vid on tumblr and holy shit it's AWESOME! Thank you so much for making. <3

Date: 2016-10-16 01:23 am (UTC)
settiai: (Garak -- selluinlaer)
From: [personal profile] settiai
I love you so much right now. ♥♥♥

Date: 2016-10-16 11:01 am (UTC)
happydork: A graph-theoretic tree in the shape of a dog, with the caption "Tree (with bark)" (Default)
From: [personal profile] happydork
Friend, this is so beautiful. They touch each other. So much. With the touching. And the smiling. And the looking at each other with their eyes. I appreciate this fine piece of art you have put together.

Date: 2016-10-16 11:04 am (UTC)
cosmic_llin: (Default)
From: [personal profile] cosmic_llin
You already know how I feel about the vid (SO MUCH MAGICAL TOUCHING) but I wanted to say that this whole post is delightful! :D

Date: 2016-10-16 11:21 am (UTC)
raven: Karen Gillan as Amy Pond, wearing green and red and looking up (Default)
From: [personal profile] raven
NO HETEROSEXUAL EXPLANATION I still love this so much. It's so crisply edited and just, aaaah. *hands*

Date: 2016-10-16 09:18 pm (UTC)
such_heights: bashir & garak in tuxedos (trek: bashir/garak)
From: [personal profile] such_heights
THEY LOVE EACH OTHER SO. MUCH. It is overwhelming. Shoulders! Secret smiles! Spies! a;lsdkjas;lj

Date: 2016-10-18 06:52 pm (UTC)
petra: Barbara Gordon smiling knowingly (Default)
From: [personal profile] petra
This is superb. ALL THE EYEFUCKING. ALL THE TOUCHING. ALL OF IT. I have no coherence, only smoosh hands and joy.

Date: 2016-10-19 12:48 am (UTC)
inkjunket: (gerard \o/)
From: [personal profile] inkjunket
This was PHENOMENAL. Loved it.

Date: 2016-10-19 08:34 am (UTC)
zeusgoesfishing: Maleficent from Disney's Sleeping Beauty (Default)
From: [personal profile] zeusgoesfishing
Omg this is GORGEOUS, I love it!!

Date: 2016-10-25 03:45 pm (UTC)
fightingarrival: (Default)
From: [personal profile] fightingarrival
this is amazing and i love everything about it. however if i have to pick one thing, the "but your innocence is mine" part was quality.

Date: 2016-12-21 05:48 pm (UTC)
jb_slasher: ossi väänänen, lasse kukkonen; team finland (juggernauts)
From: [personal profile] jb_slasher
Holy wow, this is delicious. [jumps around the room giddily!]

Date: 2017-02-13 09:33 pm (UTC)
felis: (upside down)
From: [personal profile] felis
OMG, what a perfect slash vid. Love it. Thank heavens for Festivids, in and of itself of course, but in this case also because it reminded me to check your journal and see if you'd made any new vids since last year. I spent the better part of 2016 watching both DS9 and TNG in their entirety, so I was delighted to discover this one. Love the song choice, love that you have light and humour (Garak's eyeroll in 1:31, ahahaha) as well as darkness in this (very true to them of course), love all the clip choices (the "your innocence is mine" one for example, Bashir's face! ...and the best thing is that you can start an essay on his character from that alone). Awesome.

Date: 2017-02-15 09:44 pm (UTC)
felis: (upside down)
From: [personal profile] felis
Aw, thanks. And yes, DS9 is great. I was only planning on watching TNG last year (which I love very much, too), then decided on a whim to do DS9 as well, in parallel, and was very happy with that decision. Went into it without any expectations and was almost surprised at a) how much I enjoyed watching it from the beginning (especially because for all that I love it, TNG has a much slower start, quality-wise), and b) how well it holds up in general. Julian wasn't a favourite at first but became one along the way, and Garak was always a highlight to have around.


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