Oh, Vienna

Feb. 20th, 2014 12:27 am
purplefringe: Amelie (Default)
[personal profile] purplefringe
Only, er, 2 months late, I am delighted to post my effort for [personal profile] silly_cleo's wonderful Aims Vidding Project! (Go and watch them all, they're all fabulous!)

Never Look Away
edited by [personal profile] purplefringe
fandom: Doctor Who
characters: The Doctor, Clara
music: Never Look Away by Vienna Teng
summary: you’re made of memories you bury or live by
content notes: Contains some very fast cutting and flickery lights

I am eternally grateful to the following lovely people:

To [personal profile] silly_cleo, for coming up with this whole beautiful project in the first place, for orchestrating everything, and, um, for being very very patient with me as I dithered and procrastinated and generally failed to deliver my vid even remotely on time. <3
To [personal profile] such_heights, my wonderful vidwife, for letting me use this song in the first place. And then for watching the inevitable fifteen bajillion very slightly different versions and giving helpful beta advice, and for generally being super lovely and encouraging about this vid, even when I was being whiny and indecisive and annoying. <3
And to [personal profile] elisi, [personal profile] lonewytch, [personal profile] janie_aire, [personal profile] deborah_judge, [personal profile] radiolaires and all of the other amazing meta writers, whose thoughts I admire and envy in equal measure, and who have fundamentally changed the way I watch this stupid show. <3

It was hard to make, this vid. Mostly because the lyrics fit too well - I am pretty sure that Vienna Teng is a timetraveler, who traveled to the future, watched this entire season of DW, then skipped back to her Tardis, came home and wrote this song. I just can't imagine it being about anything else. Having lyrics that matched the story *so* perfectly was a little paralyzing, actually. When the lyrics are less obviously relevant, paradoxically I tend to find it easier to choose which clips to use. (This is possibly why Devil's Spoke, my Wash and Zoe vid, was one of the easiest vids I've ever made and one of the very few I feel no desire to tinker with in retrospect - I have absolutely no bloody idea what that song is about or what the lyrics mean, even now, so it was easy to make things fit.) Here, every line is so loaded with meaning that I was spoiled for choice, and found that really hard. Also, almost every line could equally apply to the Doctor's perspective on Clara or Clara's perspective on the Doctor. At first I tried to incorporate both, but the result was a bit of a mess. So eventually (and with much woe at having to cut out some really shiny parallels) I decided to concentrate on Clara's POV - until the second, epic iteration of the chorus, when it becomes about both of them. I do hope that comes across...

ETA: As these notes are mostly for my own benefit - I sometimes find it interesting to go back and see what I was thinking when making a particular vid - I should add what I forgot to say initially: I started making this vid quite a few weeks before the 50th Anniversary aired. I was 99% confident (for reasons of Meta) that Gallifrey was going to return, at least temporarily, and that Clara was going to be instrumental in this. So I already had an inkling of what 'bring you to your birthright' was going to mean in the context of the vid...but I started making it anyway. Then The Day Of The Doctor aired, and it fitted with this song more perfectly than I could have ever imagined, and it undid me a little. Suddenly every line had even more resonance than before, and a lot of sequences I was really proud of had to be ruthlessly deleted from the timeline to fit in the new context. (I am very bad at ruthless. I'm painfully indecisive.) And then....the obsessive in me took over. I couldn't finish this vid until the Christmas ep had aired, and we had ALL of Clara and Eleven's story. It would have bugged me FOREVER if I'd made it without the ending. (dammit, open canon.) And then Christmas came, and the same thing happened! Cue deleting, cue re-interpretation of lyrics, cue much flailing on the sofa and being unable to even.

The vid was also hard to make because of ALL THE META. Seriously, this last season has done terrible things to my brain, to the extent that I almost (almost) wish I didn't care about the Hero's Journey or the World Tree or any of that, because it would be a significantly more relaxing viewing experience. As it is, there was SO MUCH to cram into this vid, I put off making it for a really long time because it was slightly overwhelming. There are already some really fabulous meta vids out there about Clara - the mystery of 'Clara who?' seems to have really inspired them - and I particularly recommend Message and I See The Light by [personal profile] radiolaires, State Of Dreaming by [personal profile] niyalune, The New Age by [personal profile] promethia_tenk and To The Grave by KatrinDepp.

This was a rather daunting backdrop to vid against! (Or it is if you are me, and easily discouraged by everyone else's awesomeness). I wanted to make a vid that summed up the lens through which I watched this last season, and that inevitably meant making some tricky choices - do I go with the pretty, swirly shot, or with the shot that looks slightly less shiny but has more resonance if you are aware of the context? Will most viewers even remember the context? Does it even matter, if the clip is less than half a second long?! Obviously, these are questions that come up when making any vid, but I found them harder than ever this time. It's not just my usual problem of 'which face shot looks cuter?' or 'which shot has more movement?', but more along the lines of 'do I use shot X because it fits more obviously with the lyrics, shot Y because it has layers of meta that about 3 other people will understand, but are really important to how I see the show, or shot Z just because it is so very pretty it seems a shame not to include it?!' (It's really weird, living in my brain). There was no set answer to that one, and some clips kept switching and switching back every time I exported a new draft. (I'm really sorry,[personal profile] such_heights...) I'm still not sure I'm happy with all of them, but I JUST WANT THIS VID TO BE OVER NOW.

Um. Moving on. At the other end of the clip-choices-spectrum, there was the small matter of Clara's face. Have you seen it? I defy you to look at her face and not swoon over how ridiculously adorable it is. SHE IS THE FACIEST. <3 The same goes for her wonderfully tactile relationship with the Doctor - I seriously could have filled an entire vid just with Clara's perfect facial expressions, her swishy hair, and the endless clips of her and the Doctor flailing at each other. I spent quite a lot of time bemoaning this to [personal profile] such_heights, who made soothing noises at me. Though I do blame her a little bit - when I started making this vid, it was All Meta All The Time, and had very little in the way of Feelings. She took one look at it and told me in no uncertain terms that it wouldn't do. And obviously she was right (she usually is). So then faces and cuteness happened and it was a slippery downward spiral into wanting to make a completely different vid all about Clara's radiant smile, and screw the meta entirely.

But, you know. Meta. So I compromised.

download: 56MB @ mediafire

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Never Look Away from Phoebe on Vimeo.


detect my sudden existence on your sonar
you feel the echo
electrify the resistance in your broken heart
and burn it up, oh
we’re gonna photosynthesize and drink up the sunrise

so do they ever shut up because you said so or
do you overthink ’em all
somebody ought to corrupt you on the dance floor
and take you home
show you all your daemons and desires and dark sides
all of your colonies and continental divides

let me uncover the silver in your dark hair
the weight of your bones
I want to witness the beauty of your repair
the shape you’ve grown
for you are made of nebulas and novas and night sky
you’re made of memories you bury or live by

so if you’re out there in the cold
I’ll cover you in moonlight
if you’re a stranger to your soul
I’ll bring you to your birthright
I want the storm inside you awoken now
I want your warm bright eyes
to never look away
don’t you ever look away

some nights we open up the flood
and some nights we are lost
and some nights we’re choking on the words
but some we light on fire

if you’re out there in the cold…

I want your warm bright eyes
to come back to me
and hold on to me
you know I won’t lie
I will never look away
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Date: 2014-02-20 02:00 am (UTC)
chaila: Diana SWORDFIGHTING in a BALLGOWN. (river/time)
From: [personal profile] chaila
So I know nothing about this part of Doctor Who, but this is beautiful anyway! The editing is really fantastic, and I am a sucker for amazing visual parallels. I've rewatched the long section with the hands starting around 1:20 like five times because it is so great!

Date: 2014-02-20 02:10 am (UTC)
juniperphoenix: Eleven shouting at the sky (DW: I'm the Doctor)
From: [personal profile] juniperphoenix
Oh my god, you weren't kidding about the lyrics being perfect. Wow. I've been listening to Aims on Soundcloud, but I finally broke down and downloaded it just now for the sole purpose of adding this song to my DW playlist.

The vid itself is gorgeous. There's a wonderful motion and flow throughout, and the way you overlapped various bits of footage at the beginning is really impressive. Not to mention it gave me ALL THE FEELS, as they say. :)

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Date: 2014-02-20 01:16 pm (UTC)
kass: Oswin knocking on the TARDIS door (Clara)
From: [personal profile] kass

OMFG this is amazing. Amaaaaaaazing!

So gorgeous. Every moment. Every clip. I need to watch it about ten thousand more times before I can say anything coherent about it. Right now I'm just caught between beaming and wanting to cry, which is exactly how this season left me. Holy wow. I can't even. THiS VID!!!

Date: 2014-02-20 03:10 pm (UTC)
laurashapiro: a woman sits at a kitchen table reading a book, cup of tea in hand. Table has a sliced apple and teapot. A cat looks on. (Default)
From: [personal profile] laurashapiro
The movement in this is just BREATHTAKING. I can't get over the determined, unceasing pulse of this. The internal motion, the cutting itself is underscoring the vid's theme: Clara's determination to know, understand, help, save the Doctor always. It's like you vidded relentlessness, and you did it relentlessly. I am all agog.

I will now need to watch this about 27 more times to pick up all the subtleties.

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Date: 2014-02-20 03:16 pm (UTC)
elisi: (Clara Doctor snarl)
From: [personal profile] elisi
I currently have NO WORDS. I need to watch about 500 times more, and then try to make coherent noises at you.

Mind you, I know I need to write Clara-centric meta (so much there) so this might help kick-start something...

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Date: 2014-02-20 04:04 pm (UTC)
a_phoenixdragon: (Default)
From: [personal profile] a_phoenixdragon
Perfection...sheer perfection...

Date: 2014-02-20 06:09 pm (UTC)
shinyjenni: The Eleventh Doctor lying on the ground (eleventy)
From: [personal profile] shinyjenni
AAAAAAH YOU FINISHED IT YAY! And it is AMAZING. There's so much going on, I need to watch it many many more times to catch everything. :D The song is so perfect and you use it so brilliantly, especially in terms of pacing and movement. The ending sequence works really well - I found it really movin. <3 I particularly love the clip from "Cold War" at about 2'39.


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Date: 2014-02-20 08:24 pm (UTC)
flowsoffire: (Kate)
From: [personal profile] flowsoffire
Ohhhhhh dear! This is just magical ♥ I'm no great meta-mind so I probably missed a thousand and one things, but never mind that, it's still incredible—great vid and it gave me sooooo many feelings and CLARA GOD I CAN'T WITH HER FACE I KNOW RIGHT and CLARA AND ELEVEN THE LEVEL OF CUTE, and just their connection. *draws hearts* I'm having feelings, lots of them, and throwing love at you. THANK YOU FOR SHARING!

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Date: 2014-02-20 09:32 pm (UTC)
lost_spook: (dw - amy)
From: [personal profile] lost_spook
Oh, this is really, really beautiful! So well done!

Date: 2014-02-20 09:34 pm (UTC)
cosmic_llin: (Default)
From: [personal profile] cosmic_llin
I'm not caught up on Who so I'm probably missing beautiful shades of subtlety that you've put in here, but it's so gorgeous anyway! The intro took my breath away and the whole thing has this quality your vids often have of just kind of sweeping you along before you know what's happening? Lovely.

Date: 2014-02-20 10:06 pm (UTC)
schneefink: River walking among trees, from "Safe" (Default)
From: [personal profile] schneefink
This is great! I love the song, and you're right, it really fits perfectly. The vid flows very well and it's very pretty :)

Date: 2014-02-20 10:15 pm (UTC)
honeynoir: (guarding me? [eleven & clara])
From: [personal profile] honeynoir
Oh, that's amazing! Every little beat is perfect... and all the Clara things are there. And those lyrics. Cannot get over those lyrics. And Clara and Eleven doing all the facial expression-ing at each other and holding hands and poking each other to those lyrics...

Also loving that "all" the Clara's get screentime, as well as other Doctors. Ultimate Companion, basically. ♥

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Date: 2014-02-21 05:32 am (UTC)
ladymercury_10: (Clara Oswin Oswald)
From: [personal profile] ladymercury_10
This song fits so well, and you have some really great cuts syncing up with it! Very nice.

Date: 2014-02-22 01:04 am (UTC)
aria: ([doctor who] eleventy says yay!)
From: [personal profile] aria
Oh, I went into this going "Well, my Doctor Who feelings are a bit on hold right now, but I like the Aims vid project and I want to be complete about it!" and came out with tears in my eyes going "I JUST LOVE THEM SO MUCH AND I LOVE THEIR FACES YAY HOW PERFECT." What a lovely vid. :D

Date: 2014-02-22 04:28 pm (UTC)
revolutionaryjo: A girl waving in silhouette. (Default)
From: [personal profile] revolutionaryjo
This gave me more feels than watching the season itself did! Just beautiful. You're so talented!

Date: 2014-02-22 10:08 pm (UTC)
aughoti: Sunset at Ka'anapali (hawaii sunset)
From: [personal profile] aughoti
Holy crap... this is fantastic! It's gorgeous just on the surface, but the deeper "shut up I'm rescuing you now" that shifts back and forth between Clara and the Doctor... I -liked- this season, but I didn't really love it. Now I want to rewatch it, with this is mind. (Also want to watch the vid a few dozen more times, right after things stop being so blurry. *sniffles*) Adore how "UNDER MY PROTECTION" applies to both of them.

Totally get what you meant by the lyrics being almost too dead-on:

if you’re a stranger to your soul
I’ll bring you to your birthright
I want the storm inside you awoken now

I love how the whole vid sort of pivots on the first iteration of this. It feels deeper, more resonant at that point. Clips get a bit longer, the parallels get clearer.

Said "gorgeous" already, didn't I? But very very true. And the clips slowing with the song toward the end is amazing; it's the visual equivalent of refusing to let go of someone's hand. Fantastic!

Date: 2014-02-22 11:07 pm (UTC)
niyalune: (tardis)
From: [personal profile] niyalune
Wow, amazing vid ! During the first viewing I was too focused on the gorgeous visuals and rhythm to really take in the lyrics and all the fantastic ways you used them, so the vid just kept getting better with each rewatch ;D
And congrats on making me feel things about a season I am so ambivalent about !

Date: 2014-02-23 12:21 am (UTC)
gratiela: be yourself (Default)
From: [personal profile] gratiela
This video is one of the most beautiful things I've seen recently!
All the emotions asffgfhgdshgj!! *incoherent flail*

also also!!! I think I'll look into Vienna Teng- I'm always searching new awesome music!

Date: 2014-02-23 04:37 am (UTC)
cass404: (Default)
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Date: 2014-02-23 06:47 am (UTC)
kiki_miserychic: A Dinosaur and Kate Spade Shoes Fairytale (Default)
From: [personal profile] kiki_miserychic
Wow I really love this because of reasons.

Date: 2014-02-23 11:03 am (UTC)
frayadjacent: Buffy smirking over Giles with quarterstaff (Default)
From: [personal profile] frayadjacent
Oh wow, this is totally gorgeous. I especially love their eyes locking in the first "don't you ever look away" section -- and after I watch it a few dozen more times to take it all in better I'm sure I'll have a huge list and have to conclude that I especially love all of it.

Like a few other commenters, I didn't love this series a ton, but your vid captures everything I did love and magnifies it and makes it so gorgeous and wonderful. <3 <3 <3

'do I use shot X because it fits more obviously with the lyrics, shot Y because it has layers of meta that about 3 other people will understand, but are really important to how I see the show, or shot Z just because it is so very pretty it seems a shame not to include it?!' (It's really weird, living in my brain).

I had to laugh when I read this, because I've been having the exact same argument with myself all weekend. :D

Date: 2014-02-23 01:57 pm (UTC)
lokifan: black Converse against a black background (Default)
From: [personal profile] lokifan
WOW. There's so much gorgeous editing and great meta (the intro was perfect, all those images of the World Tree, red/blue, circles etc) and also gave me a lot of feelings. <333

Date: 2014-02-23 02:43 pm (UTC)
promethia_tenk: (clara tardis)
From: [personal profile] promethia_tenk

I shall be back with more, but am currently kinda stuck on HER PERFECT FACE <3

The editing is just gorgeous and mesmerizing, though!

Here from laurashapiro's rec

Date: 2014-02-23 05:23 pm (UTC)
dorothy1901: Gilda: Put the blame on Mame (Default)
From: [personal profile] dorothy1901
This is beautiful.

Date: 2014-02-23 06:16 pm (UTC)
radiolaires: (Default)
From: [personal profile] radiolaires
How do you? Whaaaaaa? I cannot compute anything anymore. Nothing. My face is stuck in an expression of wonder and gratitude and amazement and pure joy. This is flawless; the lyrics, the editing -blimey, the pace you set-, the emotions, the sweeping-twirling effect... Everything. I cannot believe how meta and gorgeous this is. There is so much soul and love for those two. Gone is the Doctor abandoning and doubting Clara, gone is Clara trying so damn hard to be a hero -well, not completely, because ALL the meta is in here. There is just those adorable idiots loving and helping each other through each other's journey and it's so good.

The opening was just breathtaking and the superimpositions there! All the meaning! The echo, the umbrella tossed from him to her, across echoes... The 'take you home' and 'show you all your demons' part! The running of the chorus! 'let me uncover the silver in your dark hair[...]the shape you’ve grown': most beautiful piece of editing ever. I want to wake up to it in the morning. Gosh Amy/River parallel. 'I'll cover you in moonlight/if you’re a stranger to your soul': I'm far gone, thank you for asking. And then Clara's ickle face and the second bloody chorus filled with so many gorgeous parallels between Clara and the Doctor, I can't. You've broken me.

I kinda hate you because you achieved what I now consider the best ever Clara & Eleven vid to be edited and I don't think I want to open my editing program ever again.

Oh, and thank you for the fascinating genesis of the project; it's hilarious to read about all those little things that make vid-making so frustrating. It's reassuring to see I'm not the only one with meta vs. pretty shot problems. And thank you for the mention and the dedication! What is my name even doing on this page with this gem, I don't know, but thank you; I am incredibly proud to be even associated with it!

Thank you for editing, persevering, sharing this beauty! *throws flowers*

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